I realize that part of it may be jet lag, but this began last Thursday, long before the trip home from Romania. For the past several days, I have woken up between 4 and 4:30, and been unable to go back to sleep. For those of you who follow my ramblings, you have heard me say that it seems God wakes me from time to time just to talk. And of course, I am really perceptive – normally it only takes 3 or 4 days in a row before I begin to pick up on the fact that maybe I should spend the time in prayer. Well, maybe not 3 or 4 days, but I am not always the sharpest tool in the shed when it comes to this area.
I am not sure I have pinpointed exactly what I need to be learning from my early morning encounters but I do know this: God allowed me to be a part of an amazing Red Page Ministries team serving in Romania this past week and I am forever different because of the experience. I was humbled to work with students who are truly hungry for the Gospel. Here in the states, our students hunger as well, but it is rare to find a group of so many students, gathered together at one time and place, who are all seeking God with a passion for a real and meaningful relationship.
My mind has been racing since we left Sinaia wondering what comes next? What would God have me do? Where is God leading in relation to what our team has just experienced in Romania?
I have to be honest, I have been home less than 24 hours and my head is still spinning from it all. So it is going to take me some time to process the experience and begin to work through who I have become because of it. I will continue to work through my thoughts and emotions and continue to seek God in this. As clarity comes, I will be sharing here.
But until that time, here is something I do know that affects today – this moment: God does not call the equipped, he equips the called. You and I are called to make a difference in our world – not some day, this day. How are you going to make a difference in the life of another today?
I would love to hear what God does through you today!
Clay in the Hands 
Hello Brian! I agree- this trip was amazing…so amazing was the Lord’s presence at camp that it has left me speechless. No words can describe what my heart and soul feels as I reflect on what He allowed me to witness in Romania. I am so very thankful for each and every experience- even the sprints through the airport that ended in waving at a plane instead of boarding it-ha! I am thankful for the opportunity to learn about Him through the lives -and laughter- of new friends, Romanian and American. Even though the language and customs are different- the God of the universe is not. His language is universal and understood by all as it speaks to the heart of every man. God is love and He is in love with us. He wants nothing more than for us to be in love with Him and to live a life of love that draws others to Him. What a privilege- I am blessed beyond measure!
Very well said!